MIAH LE RÊVE

[You can read from bottom to top as well or however you wish to. Depression, Anxiety, and Suicide] [Sniffles] I’ve waited 3 years to write this, Waiting for the right words and moment to do this, And then I realized, the longer I hold back, the deeper I sink, Ever growing like a keloid, this pain doesn’t want to shrink. Sending me into the deepest shades of darkness, My own mind-made hell, a tale of pain and sadness. Digging through the trenches, all night searching for an exit, Starting from scratch, rebuilding to take my place among the stars. Rising from the ashes, I made a few patches. Dark within and without, yet I take my flight towards the fight, my plight to get through the night. The war goes on, each day battling from dusk till dawn. To my loved ones lost, Body’s gone but soul and spirit never lost, Each in their caskets frost, On the tombstones, epiphanies to the fallen 6ft deep above the land of their dreams guess they’re all in. Will they be one again in the world beyond? ...

Love and losses  Plagues and curses  Life and phases  Resilience and praises  Stages and places Race and phases Hades and hazes  Strays and mazes  X and Os Friends and foes Men and hoes Girls and gold  X and Os Friends and foes Found solace in the trench holes Interacting with fellow lost souls  Seeking peace to make me whole. I guess that's the goal.  They said I was too young to understand, I laughed  They said time will heal the pain, they lied Don't let them see how you feel, I smiled In my closet, when no one's watching, I cried Too many times I gave up,  I died Looking alive and breathing but into depression I slide Anxious, suicidal but can't let it out, rather I sighed Who's gonna save me now? I cried  No one could answer me , they hide Slowly drifting deeper, I glide.  How are you? She asked. I'm fine as always, I lied. They wonder where I went to, they searched. Stop looking for the old me, I died....