MIAH LE RÊVE

[You can read from bottom to top as well or however you wish to. Depression, Anxiety, and Suicide] [Sniffles] I’ve waited 3 years to write this, Waiting for the right words and moment to do this, And then I realized, the longer I hold back, the deeper I sink, Ever growing like a keloid, this pain doesn’t want to shrink. Sending me into the deepest shades of darkness, My own mind-made hell, a tale of pain and sadness. Digging through the trenches, all night searching for an exit, Starting from scratch, rebuilding to take my place among the stars. Rising from the ashes, I made a few patches. Dark within and without, yet I take my flight towards the fight, my plight to get through the night. The war goes on, each day battling from dusk till dawn. To my loved ones lost, Body’s gone but soul and spirit never lost, Each in their caskets frost, On the tombstones, epiphanies to the fallen 6ft deep above the land of their dreams guess they’re all in. Will they be one again in the world beyond?

(I thought of editing this and rewriting some parts for more clarity but then I thought, why kill the fun in the undiluted version of this that I wrote with great enthusiasm and joy? I still did sha) My Lord! I've not had this much fun in a longggggg timeeee  😭 I had fun and I was still feeling wavy on my bed. Oh, what a feeling!  The beach is my happy place. I'm yet to find another beauty of nature that beats the feeling I get any time I'm at the beach. Someday, maybe a second-best place to be. The beach will always be first.  The journey to the island was a smooth one. I've always had a thing for boat rides. They calm my nerves a lot.  I got my earphones plugged in listening to Amapiano, my newfound go-to music therapy. There's something about the Amapiano sound, though electric in nature, it performs a soft tissue massage on my brain. One day I'll get the right words to describe the spirituality I'm beginning to develop in this sound.  The waves crashing